Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Its been a long time ~

It's been a long long time since i last put a note for myself on facebook. It has also been a long time since i need to remind myself of something that is such dear to me. Usually that is the case when I'm feeling so down, or when i miss my mother.

But today, it's neither of that. Today, perhaps; for the first time, it's just me and my inept remarks of myself.

So what is it all about? It's the void. The same damn void that i felt many years ago. It keeps on appearing puncturing a hole deep inside of me; making me feel soulless and empty.

I've kept myself occupied, i gained a lot of nice friends to talk with; to hang out with. I've somehow attach myself to a person i can call a brother.

So why does it keeps on appearing; the void? Was it me? Did i do something wrong? Did i miss anything? Why?

To be honest with, i don't even know.

I need someone. Someone to keep reminding me of something that i don't even know about. And that doesn't make any sense at all. But i know i do need someone, someone to miss to, someone to keep my smile on. But i just don't know who.

Someone to keep me mesmerized, is that even possible?

I used to ignore these kind of bullshit; thinking it's just me and my head. But i know deep inside, i can't keep on ignoring this void as it is growing bigger and bigger; puncturing and rending a deeper hole on my soul.

Will i one day be soulless, keeps on wandering like i have no purpose in life?

I do not want that. I have to find a cure. I have to find the elixir; the remedy to this prolonged sickness.

So, will you be my cure?