Walk The Edge

It's Ramadhan

2011-08-01T06:29:00.002+08:00

Finally Ramadhan arrives; Month full of blessings and barakah in it. Im all excited about Ramadhan. Wishing you all Happy Ramadhan and may Allah bless us all. To most people, Ramadhan is known as the month of Ibadah. I am not really sure about that but to me every month is month of Ibadah. It's just, our good deeds will be multiplied during this month of barakah. I guess? InsyaAllah, I'll try to finish 30 Juzuk of Al-Quran (I'm halfway now!) in ramadhan and I promise to myself to stay far from any evil deeds. Pray the best to each of my friends out there. I love you guys all.
Happy Ramadhan
Khdr Kmrzmn

2011-07-28T18:26:00.002+08:00

Salam/Hey guys those posts mentioning about "Mrs. X" aren't my posts. Do take note :) Those posts are from my beloved cousin, Nzm or best known as Hardan fo Noitome. And yes this blog has two awesome contributors.
Yours truly,
Khaidir Kamaruzzaman

2011-07-27T08:45:00.002+08:00

I found myself in you, I cannot lie. I carry all this load, on my on.

Sorry about that, cus it was inappropriate for the public. And Im just too cute.

Condifent ~

2011-07-25T20:39:00.001+08:00

WAI BRO WAI ?

Im not confident

2011-07-18T20:08:00.006+08:00

Sorry bro had to delete your post.-_-
Yours truly - khdr kmrzmn

2011-07-04T12:42:00.001+08:00

( づ￣з￣)づ

Dear Miss X

2011-06-28T18:29:00.005+08:00

Now everybody is wondering who you really are. Few days back, couple of friends called, askin' me about you. I told em I do not know who you are. Cus you are my future girl. Now I guess everybody is doin' this face " 8===D " U guys mad? Bai :)

Edit 1 : Khaidir you stupid fool ~

Because it is a cause

2011-06-24T04:16:00.000+08:00

Spend a moment with me please, Ms X ?
You do not know how much i like you right now.

This is a post to remind you, Ms X.

2011-06-16T04:04:00.002+08:00

I, can not, resist, your call, Sirens Of The Sea.

Dear Ms X,

This is an honest review of yourself, by me, the great imbecile; the masterful deceiver; the one with the void inside his golden heart. Or black heart due to non-stop smoking.

Dear Ms X,
Your eyes. Do you realize that you have such beautiful dreamy eyes that i adore so so much? I guess you don't. Because when you looked at me, i know you're not really looking at me. You're looking way behind my shoulder at that perfect guy with 6 pack abs and a cool sunglasses stuck on top of his head. You're just pretending to look at me because you personally know me. If I'm a total stranger i guess you won't even notice I'm there shadowing your every movement, your every step and your every day perfection and imperfection. Because for me, I'm genuinely happy just by looking at you.

Dear Ms X,
The way you walk. Some people might call it retarded or not functioning properly. But for me, it's the golden view; the melancholic beautiful panorama that i surely do not want to miss. Because i secretly adore it. Because i secretly in love with it. To hell with what people say and to hell with people who gazed at you awkwardly.

Dear Ms X,
For months I've been secretly recording the way you smile inside my memory box. Do you realize your eyes will flinch just a moment before you threw that smile? Or do you realize your cheeks will glow up to prepare for your inward smile? I do. Because i love the way you smile. I just can't keep my eyes of it. I know you realized I've been staring at you, but you just don't say anything about it. Maybe you are scared because you think I'm a psychopath or a sex maniac. Or maybe you just think I'm this kind of person who just want to woo girls.

Dear Ms X,
If that is what you want to hear from me, because you personally think that i just like you for your face, so be it. Because i know deep inside of what i truly feel Ms X. And i know i won't go and woo you because personally i just think I'm not worth it. You're too perfect for me. It's hard for me, who with all these imperfection to be with you; side by side. And i know damn sure that it's just impossible for you to even like me.

Dear Ms X,
Because of that, I've decided to just gaze, stare, look, adore you from afar. I can't describe you with enough adjective. Because it is just too damn impossible. Because i know deep inside of me, just by adoring you from afar, will obviously makes me happy enough. And i will continue to be your number one fan, your friend no matter what. Even if you don't even like me.

Because you're my genuine inception Ms X. And i promise you, i will always be the one who will always be there. No matter if you just need a friend to chat with; need a guy to consult you after a messy break ups; need advice on your next in line soon to be boyfriend; and anything else that you wanted be it just a shopping partner. I'll pretend i even like shopping (although it bores me to death) just for you if that what makes you happier and stress free.

Because Ms X, if you really really want to know, I'm happy and satisfied by just being a side shadow for you. I'm also happy by just walking in your shadow and to adore you even from far away.

And for damn sure I'm really happy to be your friend.

Sincerely,
Nz

Its been a long time ~

2011-05-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

It's been a long long time since i last put a note for myself on facebook. It has also been a long time since i need to remind myself of something that is such dear to me. Usually that is the case when I'm feeling so down, or when i miss my mother.

But today, it's neither of that. Today, perhaps; for the first time, it's just me and my inept remarks of myself.

So what is it all about? It's the void. The same damn void that i felt many years ago. It keeps on appearing puncturing a hole deep inside of me; making me feel soulless and empty.

I've kept myself occupied, i gained a lot of nice friends to talk with; to hang out with. I've somehow attach myself to a person i can call a brother.

So why does it keeps on appearing; the void? Was it me? Did i do something wrong? Did i miss anything? Why?

To be honest with, i don't even know.

I need someone. Someone to keep reminding me of something that i don't even know about. And that doesn't make any sense at all. But i know i do need someone, someone to miss to, someone to keep my smile on. But i just don't know who.

Someone to keep me mesmerized, is that even possible?

I used to ignore these kind of bullshit; thinking it's just me and my head. But i know deep inside, i can't keep on ignoring this void as it is growing bigger and bigger; puncturing and rending a deeper hole on my soul.

Will i one day be soulless, keeps on wandering like i have no purpose in life?

I do not want that. I have to find a cure. I have to find the elixir; the remedy to this prolonged sickness.

So, will you be my cure?

2011-04-28T19:06:00.001+08:00

Bile pulak aku ade muka macam boyfriend kau? -.-"

2011-04-03T18:59:00.002+08:00

Aite so yesterday I went to LIFE to check out some news, to wash my rusty brain of course. I have been sittin in my room for like days, studying. So yeah I checked out pictures of this girl named "Mila Kunis". What I had in my mind was "Hmm she is quite a catch". Not that I like her but she looks just hot, naturally. Yes.
Suddenly my friend, got into my room and checked her out as well. He then said, "Dude, try google this, "Ballerina Bun". I was reluctant at first. But then he managed to convince me so I did. And so I google-ed this "Ballerina Bun". Cus of the latency of the speed of my broadband, only a picture got out. And I said to him, "Dude, she is old -.- WTF man". And few seconds after that, heaps of pictures comin out with different faces. I was like err what is this. YOU GOT ME BRO. That moment, I laughed hard, like real hard. "Ballerina Bun" is actually a hairstyle. Haha. You really made my day bro, you did. You got me. Cheers :)

So much to tell.

2011-03-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

I had to let you go because I can no more tolerate with 'maksiah' and sins. I have done so much sins, repent is taking its place. Love to the creator is what I call real love now. You may laugh if you wish to. See you guys in future life.

2010-12-06T08:37:00.001+08:00

M done writing, bye

2010-11-06T04:52:00.001+08:00

Hatin' yourself for no reason is somethin' you should try.

2010-10-18T01:16:00.003+08:00

The depths of a man's soul cannot be measured in a manor of meters and fathoms but rather it is in my opinion only quantified by his proximity to heaven and hell. It was in such a state I ushered myself past the town tavern bursting at the seams with the sounds laughter and drunken piano playin'. Had it only been a different night, a different place, different kind of man passin' by the threshold of that innocent pub. The events that transpired there would never have even begun to be grasped by the feat. I could only ask if anyone outside that place had a clue when the exclamations of mirth became the desperate screams of the helpless begging for their very lives.

2010-09-27T02:59:00.000+08:00

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RESTING
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2010-09-15T19:34:00.002+08:00

I was born to be a thinker but then i messed up. I became a writer. I suck in writing. And i ended up being a learner.

2010-09-06T05:46:00.002+08:00

I am a vicegerent of Allah. But why I never care the prohibitions that have been drawn for me and of course for us, Muslim. My world revolves around Maksiat, all of the bad things. Yes I am scared of Allah's punishment in the life of hereafter. I know how far am I standing now from other Muslims out there. I'm like trillion kilometers and thousand months away from them. I am left behind.

Today, I'm walking fast to get myself there, I mean where other Muslims are standing right now. I know it's impossible but insyaAllah, in Allah's will, I'll get there. I know I'm no match for paradise but it's worth a try. Come my friends, it's not like we've missed our plane and we will never get another plane. We can still reach there. Allah will assist us in many ways. It's just between you and the heart now.

2010-08-21T00:37:00.000+08:00

Greetings,
Have you ever wondered how our lives going to be if someday there is no electrical power. I mean, think again. We are currently living in a very advance and luxury life. We gain knowledge from the net, submit our assignments through the net to the lecturers, watch videos online, communicate with our peer using the phone, to name a few. We depend too much on technology.Aren't you scared of all these? Sooner or later, technology will eat your ass and you will suffer excruciating pain. I am not telling technology never contributed anything to us, human being. Yes technology is very dear to us. But think again.

2010-08-10T19:25:00.000+08:00

Dear friends, here i wanna share with you guys something.

Our life is actually a dream. Yes, life is a dream.
When we wake up later, we will realize that we are actually in grave.
Life isn't real. Wake up my friends, you're still dreaming.
Can you please slap me so that i can wake up from my dream.
We can wake up together, hold my hand.
Dear friend, how much sins have you committed?
Mine? Countless. I deserve hell.
But in the same time I really wanna be in Jannah.
Sleep tight friend, we'll meet each other later.

Time flies..

2010-08-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

It has been 4 weeks now. I still cant forget her.
I missed you,
MAA 64.
You be good. Love, your baby -.-"

Do comment

2010-07-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

What love really means to you actually?

Comment please.

2010-06-17T05:39:00.000+08:00

Hello earthlings, how are you guys doing. Basically im busy with house chores (paintings&some other stuffs). 1 more week before the day arrives that is my brother's wedding. Ahh forget about that. Let us talk about something else. Ive someone in mind who currently bugging me - Jusin Bieber AKA Justin Bab*Fuc*er and so on. Just so you know, he is a kid who hasn't hit puberty and he needs a baby sitter. I have no freaking idea why girls out there are dying for him(sorry and no offence, not you). That stup*d Justin Bieber sounds like a 'she'. Seriously when i first heard his song in the radio i thought he was a girl which i told to myself 'hmm quite a nice voice,girl'. But the most irritating part is when people saying im having Justin Bieber's hairstyle. OMFG! You really get on my nerves Justin Biber. You are the one who copied my hairstyle and people around claiming i copied yours. Please GTH -.- PLEASE DIE JB PLEASE DIE JB PLEASE DIE JB, Bye -.-

2010-06-09T05:02:00.001+08:00

Hello, yes I am back again. Theoretically I do not know what Ive been thinking about lately. Too many unwanted thoughts crossed my mind. My house is at chaos currently with renovations happening in it. Ive been living with dust/dirty air since then. My foot never get cleaned, my room never get fresh and tidy. I shall say I am living in a very healthy lifestyle, LOL! Hmm, actually i feel pity to my parents because they spent thousands for our house. To me, of course it is a real big loss but to them it gives pleasure to their hearts&minds. I know, after several years of hard-work, this is the right time for them to finally smell all the money they managed to earn from the beginning. Guys,u would know how they feel when you guys are at their age. So do not stop loving them guys before they are gone. I LOVE MY AYAH & MUMMY S2
Love,
Khaidir :)

2010-06-08T15:36:00.000+08:00

Hello friends. Ive been busy lately. My brother's wedding preparation, games, etc. I still cant take my hands off my keyboard. I'm practically bored with DOTA and PirateKingOnline. I tried WoW and WoW is awesome. Alas, it needs a quite high graphic which my laptop cant really run it.
Hmm well as a consumer, Ive been wondering about something. One question suddenly appears, "why things(chair/lamp/water heater/car/battery/wallet/etc -.- do not last long". Why cant they live long without any damage even they are hit/crashed severely. I'm wondering if that is how big companies gain profit. Come on, we are in 21st century, living in a high-tech world. We can invent robots,rockets and satellites but why cant we invent a last-long goods. Go my friend, you can make a difference. Be a great inventor.
Love,Khaidir.

GG

2010-05-05T07:25:00.000+08:00

I am so GG, bye.

Dear Friends,

2010-04-13T03:08:00.000+08:00

I am sorry for not texting, calling, asking what are u guys doing now and etc LOL. This is due to the extinction of my credits! Sorry guys. I know some of you might claim im someone who forgets friends, someone who doesnt want to spend time with the others. Its just i dont reeally have times for that, due to time management and laziness =x no just kidding. I just want you to know that i miss all of you. Including you. Yes the one who reads this -.- zzzz. Even youre not my friend. Yeap its true im a kind-hearted cute guy. Sorry, self-proclaiming. No, its true im someone worth friend with! Btw im currently super bored.
Ok, on the other hand, I play DOTA like almost everyday. Poor my baby. Sorry sweetie, you gotta understand that your bf is a pro gamer (yet to be) LOL. Im so lucky cause she understands me, else she would have dumped me =/ Dont worry i wont neglect you :) till then, see ya!

All Messed Up

2010-04-09T02:41:00.000+08:00

Hey its been a while. 3 weeks i guess? I'm not really sure but ahh forget about that. I'm currently tensed up. I don't know what tensed me. Fuck i still cant figure it out. MUET is like weeks from now. And I'm quite stressed. I studied NONE. NONE i tell you. I at least want Ben 4 and above. Fuck i need a vacation. Please let me outta here. i mean where am i staying right now. Practically I'm sitting and wasting my fucking time DOTA-ing, PKO-ing (Pirate King Online,for your info) and FB-ing. I really have nothing to do. 3 months to go before my new semester starts back. What a very long vacation. I'm not used to a long vacation. Yes i need books with me, i love books, i sleep with them. Books are like my closest buddy. You guys aren't. Sorry no heart feelings. I'm just in love with books. Fuck i should get married soon, with a book. ah man I'm in love. fuck, stop crapping mofo. bye <3

Bereft of hope.

2010-03-11T03:12:00.000+08:00

Hye its been weeks since my last post. Im technically bored and just finished playing dota with izzat hazwan,haris ayub,haziq harun and izzat's friend. I must say it was a tough game, PHEW. We lost but lost with pride actually. We won the first game, at least haha. Duhh dota, a game which girls hate the most. Haha. Some girls even play dota and yes i do respect them! They are prooo. Fuck it i need to spice my skills up in dota. ahh knock it out. You should be boring reading this crap. Well yeah im currently stuck here in my room doing nothing. I mean ill be enjoying a very long holiday-like 5 months? Im dead meat! i have nothing to do. Working will not be the answer. Sorry if you have that cunt idea in your mind. Ill pass, heh sorry. I dont know why, i once worked with quiksilver. I had enough. Working = boring X boring X boring X boring and blabla. Ok, done crapping. Nite friends, love ya S2

hY3~......

2010-02-17T02:28:00.000+08:00

hye i was handsome! that was long ago laaaa. now me no longer handsome. now, tomolo i got paper one. exam la i mean. paper called BMW ma. not the car laa. haiyooo. u always jump into conclusion one. not that one. this BMW we call basic method and report writing. quite hard la this subject one. me also donno what come out. me espect easy the one lah. cause me also study not good one. i mean me study then online study then online. HAHAHAH bad me aaa. silly lo me. lazy one. when want study also i donno one. hehe. later la. i wanna go sleep lo. tired edi. me driven car so traffic jam a! walao 2 hours u think what? 2 hours in traffic jam can die ooo. haish. me go sleep aa. nite people!
Bad English teaches us to be better anyhow. I mean, where we were from? We didn't write and speak nice and smoothly when we were young. It is experience that makes us a great and intelligent. Thank you.

Simple yet Confusing

2010-02-05T04:02:00.000+08:00

When you have nothing to write, you feel you're just stupid. No, not really. Maybe you're just out of ideas. I still remember my best buddy- Izzat told me a nice-great quotation. It sounds like this "A knowledgeable man knows how little he knows". Indeed, it is so true. I somehow imagine how my life would be in 10 or 20 years time. Might be suffering or enjoying life. No matter how good you are, how well you perform your life, no matter how well you manage your life, you will not get what u determined before, what you wished for and what you aimed if you face a real strong passionate hatred of society/people around you. You will not even get a single respect. I bet you. Enough said.

This is the story of my love life, sad and bitter.

2010-01-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

After months being with her, i decided to let her go real soon. This is my destiny. I was destined not to be with her for forever, or i might get her back soon. Time will tell. Months having a real deep feelings towards her, lived with her, slept with her, done everything with her are just history that will never be coming back. I feel like jumping from a newly-build skycrapper, Burj Al-Khalifah in UAE. Yes i was madly in love with her we had a splendid time together. Her body, her eyes, and hands made me live happily like no one ever exist in the world except for me and her. She treated me very nicely. She was also very dear to me. I know, what an absurd decision i have made. Im a right cunt! People said we were perfectly matched but all i can do is nothing. Good bye my dear, may god bless you. Dear feelings of mine, please go away. I'll keep you buried in my god damn fucking mind, MAA 64. Yes, she is my car.

Avatar

2010-01-17T03:59:00.001+08:00

Well, practically i went out for a movie, Avatar. Yes two words. HOLY SHIT! It was awesome. Quadruple thumbs up. Somehow it sounds lame because i just watched it which others may have watched it like years ago? Heh. Dont mind them, but it was great! awesome! cool! I don't mind watching it over and over again. The mixture of happiness, glorious, and bitterness makes it the greatest film ever which makes it to be listed in my 2010 great movie list!

..

2010-01-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

Ingat tetek kau besar ke nak tunjuk gambar dekat orang. Grow up dear kid.

Happy New Year

2009-12-30T14:16:00.000+08:00

Hey happy new year! Im sure a lot of you are planning on celebrating it. I mean going out with your peers and have some fun. Hmm i wonder how fun it is-celebrating new year. i can't find how fun it is. I mean going out, wait until 12 arrives and scream the hell word out loud. I cant find 'FUN' there. i never celebrated new year in my 18 years of living. We can say im outdated and not a really fun guy to hang out with. HAHA. And frankly speaking, i never know what new year is. i mean every single day is similar to the other day and i never give a damn to any celebration. BORING.

Bungle

2009-12-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

Fuck i got a BIG F for my Time In Class Essay HAHAHAHA. My arguments were not relevant at all. Fuck it the lecturer couldn't stop nagging to the whole class. Well a real BIG F is hard to get and im happy T.T

Bereft`

2009-12-20T03:40:00.000+08:00

In like 'HOURS' ill be going back to my real lovely college-which is not really lovely. im getting tired and boring of my college and life. i just cant wait to finish my semester and sleep at my fucking beautiful-comfort bed! I somehow feel that imma mighty loser! wohoo. fuck

Longevity

2009-12-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

Hye its been weeks/months since my last post. Looks like school children are happy holiday-ing. Hehe. Well happy holidays to you. I missed my school time. Well yes no assignments. Just easy homework. Alas, school is boring but still i miss school. Ok rephrasing. Heh. Oh wow yea btw i bought a new laptop! its a baby DELL(!) A little show off Hihi. Of course im happy because after years using the damn-old laptop, i got a new laptop. But the laptop is so freaking gay, 160HDD only. FUCKit! haha. and a little lag when i play dota. shit, and no web cam. But at least a Core 2 Duo processor. Nvm, im cool im cool.
till then, play safe baby. SAYONARA

ASS HOLE

2009-12-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

yes thanks for calling me an ass. indeed i am. youre soo soo an angel my dear. congratulations-you win, again.

Fuck versus Shit

2009-12-01T18:16:00.001+08:00

Ok, stop acting like youre innocent and im the one who should be blamed! fuck shit im tired of this.it's like i did a fucking major mistake which actually i did not! what did i do? i didnt even make the fucking story up, i got that from other bloody person. why should u hate me. blame me then. if u want me to be blamed than fine, have it your way. ILL GET THE BLAME THEN! now youre happy. if u hate me then tell me. let me know. tired of this lame crap. fine then im the one who made up the story, im the one who did hurt u, im the one who spoiled everythng, im the psychopath. FULL STOP-i hope youre happy

This Is So POINTLESS

2009-11-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

You just wasted 5 seconds in your life reading this crap :)

Bonjouvelieeq

2009-10-31T08:41:00.000+08:00

The new semester started. I can barely spot the fun in the new semester. The new semester if friggin boring. Im getting lazy to go to class. I dont know why, maybe the new subjects that been registered are quite boring and hard. But nvm, im going to love them later. It's just a matter of TIME. One thing that I love about going back to college, I met all my friends there! I miss them so big! They're my true soulmate. Yeah my college people are cool! I just love All of them. This is my final sem in nilai, and imma miss them (the people) later. I love you guys <3

Jizz

2009-10-25T11:26:00.000+08:00

Get you own words,lack of ideas smart ass?

Farewell

2009-10-25T11:12:00.000+08:00

I am going back to my college today :) Oh my 3 weeks of semester break really make me sick, i really miss my college and the people there. They are just mighty cool like no other :) I just cant wait to meet all of them. I LOVE YOU GUYS <3

Deceased

2009-10-25T02:35:00.000+08:00

MIDDLE FINGER FOR YOU MY DEAR ; FUCK YOU

You Might Have No Idea Who She Is

2009-10-21T17:20:00.000+08:00

Hey hye! just wondering if u guys recognise the left woman in the picture. Actually, i have no idea who was the woman until my sister told me that she is our cousin. Or aunty to be exact. She is hot though xD ok i feel great having a hot aunty HAHA. And pls ignore the right woman, she's my sister.

ok LAME POST -.-"

Hey Mofo

2009-10-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

Hye just wondering what is the kinkiest thing you've ever done? haha. suddenly this fucktap question went through my mind.
OH and i would like to add something; there's an old saying "if you dont fuck yourself, you can go to hell my dear". im not so sure about the saying actually HAHA. maybe it was made up by a modern mind =D haha its funny though.

I Am So Over You

2009-10-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

Haha yes im so over her. ok you people might think i have not moved on. the fact is i did, for like months ago LMAO. it is time to have a one great new life, live like a MAN. not BOY any longer =D i just wnna be independent. and i just wanna pass all my papers xD i dont put high hopes on myself. i dont belive myself but i will work hard to achieve and get myself into the goal :)

To The Person That May Concern

2009-10-13T15:50:00.000+08:00

I love you. HAHA what am i crapping. im no longer in love. yeah, resting from loving people hihi. why should i love anyone else if i dont love myself first. but i might fall in love again later =x just waiting for the right person >,< phew it might takes years i guess as im not as hot as other guys. i know i realise that.
till then, see ya <3

Eid; Kudos.

2009-09-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

1st agenda before anything else, including those adept comment on fail people and etc.

Happy eid mubarad to all who celebrate it; May my harsh, heart penetrating words be forgiven, again this year. Sorry, if ive been absent for too long to whoever are still reading this blog. Sorry if ive not offended you (yes you read it right, not offended), sorry if my lack of post and updates are somehow affecting in your rel life anyway (if thats the case, i truly believe you need some spiritual guidance or some reality check)

Anyway, again, happy eid mubarak. Im still lost for words even after all this month; after all this minutes and such.

Still,....

Happy Eid Mubarak

2009-09-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

i would like to wish all of my friends, bloggers and whoever knows me Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir and batin. im sorry if ive done anythng wrong or scratched your heart and feelings. please dont annihilate me :( i love you guys, yes you. yes youre the one who reads this post haha. till then, wish you have a good hari raya this year.
love,khaidir

Chill :)

2009-09-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

dont get too happy and enjoy too much guys. because even the most happiest creature in the world get sad one day. so do u. so dont enjoy too much, live averagely. u can get yourself happy but not too much aite ;)

Cannot Resist

2009-09-18T01:07:00.000+08:00

Horny lah sial =x
well, we as human being do have feelings. i dont care if u wanna say anything about this haha. i know, u also sometimes feel the same. blek!

Trying to be Religious

2009-09-17T04:16:00.000+08:00

You know, there are 2 things in life cannot wait.
#1,doing good deeds
#2,fullfulling filial piety

i myself havent started number one. how am i going for the number two?

=D

2009-09-17T04:00:00.000+08:00

i want her i want her i want her xD
HIHI im totally insane. my insanity is beyond expectation. WOHOO!
BUT =x the thing is she doenst want me haha.

DOWN

2009-09-16T08:36:00.000+08:00

you know, sometimes fate doesnt always be by our side. what can we do except for moving on. but i would like to make an exception for that. sometimes we can change the fate itself. so,im going to challange my fate and look forward, get what i wanted.

forget about that,

hmmm, its kinda hard to accept for what had happened. i spoilt a lot of things, lost tonnes of happines. im too selfish, i never appreciate things that ive got. slowly, im losing it. and i have nothing now. not even a little happiness in me.im fading away from the world. i sometimes wonder what is she doing. giggling maybe. living happily without me. its ok. ive grown up. my mind set may be like child's mind but im big enough to think as a grown up human being. ive been through a hard time, life didnt treat me very well.i only earned trash with 18 years on earth

IDONTKNOW.
i dont know what else to write.
PASRAH,*pasrah tu ape?*ive no idea

CRAZAAYY

2009-09-15T23:50:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU :)
YES YOU, You know who you are.
FATASHAH <3

EPIC FAIL

2009-09-05T08:35:00.001+08:00

FAIL CLARINET PAINTING,haha

What A Disaster

2009-09-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

ive been pinned with a SUPER lame problem -.- it makes my head spins super fast. DAMN GIRL, i wish i never met u, never talked to u. i feel like fucking myself.

These 2 girls are soo soo not civilized

2009-08-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

you act like youre hot
you act like a BITCH,WHORE
you act like youre rich
you act like people adore you
you act like everybody loves you
you act like youre from town which actually youre way too far from it
you tell people you wear ROXY,MNG,TOPSHOP(do you need to tell those to the people? like youre filthy rich?) i dont think you deserve to wear those kinda things, seriously.
geez, youre totally not hot, u told us like you had a lot of guys before. you criticized them for having other girls, youre blaming the guys by the way. you should be blamed because youre being BITCHY all the time
GROW UP (to this 2 uncivilized girls) BITCHES!

Bye Bye

2009-08-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

Ok, losing our LOVED ONE is the most hardest thing in life. Life is unpredictable. Sometimes we have to accept it. To the girl that im talking about, I know u might be reading this, all i want you to know, I MISS YOU. Call me if u feel like u miss me ok. Ill always miss you <3

Holy Cow, The Holy Month is Back

2009-08-22T13:29:00.000+08:00

Happy Fasting to all

Weekend

2009-08-17T01:39:00.000+08:00

My weekend went good. it was fun though. although i didnt manage to go to MTV FIELD STAGE, im ok with it. i was surely sure that a lot of kids planned to go there. such as LUTFI. HAHA sorry bro. i learnt new things. A LOT. maaan, it was fucking fun. nizam, my cousin should be blamed for this. he taught me bad thing =p no nzam just kidding mike. i just knew that there are a lot more to be learnt.
LIFE IS FUN

Oh Classmates

2009-08-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

Since my classmates are good in English, im just going to shut my fucking mouth up =x

o.0

2009-07-21T12:02:00.001+08:00

LONG TIME NO SEE

Walk The Edge

2009-06-03T13:59:00.001+08:00

. . .

Kalec

. . .

Spread The Word!

2009-06-02T15:38:00.000+08:00

Just some useful links to you guys. Content range from the nerdy ones, to the whatever intresting stuff i found on the web!

Intermission link for this blog.

Free PSP Games 1

Free PSP Games 2

Another site for Free PSP Games

Goodbye My Lover

2009-05-23T13:59:00.000+08:00

Im going to lose my precious hair as i speak.5 months being with him makes me look hot, cute and adorable. its hard for me to let him go. he attracted lots of girls. its hard for me to let him go but the fucking university wont let him in. maybe because he is too hot. maybe it makes me hot being with him and might makes the girls in the university go like ths - " OH WOW HE'S HOT I'M MELTING". so now u know how hot i am. my hotness is hard to be imagined in your goddamn imagination. nevertheless, im going to get him back-i guess. but its ok, he doesnt really important where my future doesnt really come from him. it comes from my brain. but if he is still with me i might be a model which makes me rich. oh my im dead.

Distant

2009-05-23T04:32:00.000+08:00

"The nightmare is over, the spell is broken! Goodbye, Kalec, my love!"

Mayhap one day, he the overly melancholic shall be bathed in Anveena's Touch once again.

Mayhap one day, he the believer shall not be deceived by the deceiver once again.

Mayhap one day, the nightmare will be over; the spell will be broken.

23th May 09; 4:46 AM

This distant feeling just got to go. Whatever this physical manifestation; this horrid nightmare just got to stop, to give me a chance to breath; to reach out and grasp what little air that is left.

LET ME GO. I BEG YOU.

When you're heartbroken to pieces, you tend to seek whatever refugees you have left, only in my case, i got none to spare.

Mayhap one day, i shall see Anveena again. Until we meet again, my love.

Rapture, Damnation, Intensity

2009-05-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought that mostly more than average that your conscience is going to make people who pondered amused, but the same conscience is the one thing that is deliberately going to make you crumpling down? Things that make you went on emotional breakdown eventually is the one thing that make others amused.

I found that fact, more than emotionally disturbing.

There’s a word in English, that sounds “Speech is silver; Silence is golden”. Maybe probably the best thing is, to actually be silent on pretty much every damn thing that ever crossed your mind. You know, keep it to yourself and stuff? And what will happen to our circle of relativity?

Following the great Einstein/Michio Kaku (I know whoever unfortunate soul who are reading this will never have a clue of whatever crap this post is all about; but then again this blog is about crap anyway, so...) simple, it’s just going to bend more.

Maturity experiences a new set of definition.
Your social circle will tend to bend more.
You will somehow experience a light speed warp of intelligence.
You will assume everything is being bound to reaction of chains of reaction.
You will consider yourself being superior to others, and silence > words. And even thoughts.
You’ll end up not talking anymore.
And you’ll lose your insanity in the end.

Damnation of Conscience.
Intensity of Insanity.
The Rapture of mere Crappatanza.

Pero English

2009-05-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

HUHU looked liked i must furthering study at UIA. My parents really wanted me to go to UIA there. Maybe they wants me to became a ustaz sooner or later.but to me, i lazy go to UIA there. because i knows there, must be alim one. but i not really ready yet for changing u know.i still want enjoy life. i want try drunk tiger beer biskuat. even once in life also can. because we just lived once in life rite? so we must tried it even once. u know, life are too short itself. i think i want makes troubleshooter at UIA there. i think if i made troubles UIA will kicked me outed from the campus. huhu that are good news for me. i can move to other uni/colleges.later, i can keep my hair longs back. huhu later i will looks HOT like before. thnks for readed. peace yo!

english pro

Dicknity

2009-05-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

Life as a holy healer. With the new Ulduar patch up and running, and how my wow has been inactive for like half year now, I started to feel the urge crawls at the back of my head; making it itchy, to a point where scratching is no longer a viable option.

I wanted to play WoW, so badly. I wanted to heal people; I wanted to be proud by the countless praise and salutation that I got from the people who knew my level of skill; playing as a healing class character.

These urge that I got, this hands trembling to touch WoW again.

WoW, you’ve been there all my youth life. Never there to forsake me; never there to broke my heart to a million pieces. Just you wait; for I shall once again, thrive in your world of fantasy. Just you wait.

With deepest love; with much love;
To my favourite Character: Sizuka.

I love you, girl.

PS: To those who are reading and got none clue whatsoever, don’t worry, its just another rambling found deep inside my heart.

Lonely Driver

2009-04-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

Im a rempit.
pacak motor is my job. but my tyre now is bald oredi. the flower from the tyre already gone. need send to repair station motor then oni can repair tayar la. i l0!k3 r3MpIt!

POINTLESS

Busy

2009-04-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

hello guys ive start working so ill be busy for few weeks and i might not get this blog updated. so my fucking cousin will update this blog if he wants. if he doesnt want to, i dont give a damn. because he is fucking gay and nobody cares about him. sorry nz*m. u know that youre gay right. so, ill see u guys soon, wish u guys selamat berpuasa. till then BYE

Dead END

2009-04-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

IM DEAD. i have to cut my fucking nice hair (haha) because the fucking quik's boss asked me to do so.

S2

2009-04-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

i think its time for me to say
ive kept this mouth shut far too long
i miss you, i miss you

English Was Pro

2009-04-08T19:59:00.000+08:00

I digress; dug under.

Lost Generation

2009-03-30T11:54:00.000+08:00

Oi

2009-03-30T10:17:00.000+08:00

Engrish of the day.

Subject A : "Cant you speak english?"
Subject B: "Yes i am."

'Nuff said. Fikirlah sendiri macam mana tu.

Gerimis Mengundang; One.

2009-03-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

Bebal lagi.

Bebal lagi sial.

Macam lahanat, macam syaitan yang direjam.

Separuh hayat; separuh nyawa aku menahan.

Rintihan pantat, ku simpan.

Rintihan babi, ku tahan.

Mentari apa yang s`lalu kau sebut sebutkan `pabila mendung hujan yang s`lalu ku lihat.

Lakaran cinta apa; jikalau hatiku yang kau coreng coreng kan.

Merdu suara apa, jikalau telingaku berdarah mendengarnya.

Sayang, izinkan aku sayang, menyentuh perasaanku.

Biar gelora kembali.

Biar terbang kembali.

Dan terhempas kembali.

Fcuk. Aku lempang kau mampus.

Earth Hour

2009-03-24T18:49:00.000+08:00

PLKN

2009-03-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

We miss you Hakimin. Take care my man. We will always pray for you.

love,
your friends;

Damn You

2009-03-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

Aku bukan nak kutuk indie tapi aku pelik je cara budak yang bukan indie nak dress up macam indie tapi terlebih dress up sial. Ade ke shuffler pun nak dress up cam indie. Pelik sial. Camni kot diorang dress? ROFL

Aku respect kau sial.

I Dont Get It

2009-03-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

"Saya budak indie"; perlu ke cakap macam tu? Bangga sangat ke cakap macam tu? You dont even know what is indie and you labelled yourself as an indie-an? Haha. Budak zaman sekarang susah betul nak faham.

Duhh
I went out with my friends to celebrate our very-good-spm-result and i saw my old friends. I walked to them and shaked their hands and i heard something " waaa budak indie sial kau". That stunned me. ERR sorry i am not into indie and i don't really like people to label me as an indie-an.

Kenapa mesti indie sial? What is wrong with the world mama?

Alahai, kawan kawan ku.

2009-03-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

Alahai kawan kawan ku.
Korang tengok jer la gambar ni.

Enough Said..

Your Grace

2009-03-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Warning: This is a true melodramatic story.

You.

Setiap kali aku balik dari tempat kerjaku, engkaulah benda yang pertama yang bermain main di kepalaku. Berpusing pusing ke setiap neuron; ke setiap bonjolan di otakku; yang mencetuskan perasaan gersang, gembira. Menaikkan nafsuku. Menaikkan ____ (Insert word here).

You

Everytime when im feeling down, feeling exhausted, i imagine you in my embrace. Imagine you by my mouth. Touching my dry lips and make it creamy wet.

Everytime when im feeling lonely, i reach out to grab you. Your wet, sulkiness texture; situated right in between your mellow sides. I reach out to run my hands down in between you. I'll play my smooth fingers, until your cream splurt out. And that cream is the greatest bliss i've ever tasted in my entire melodramatic life.

You

You, my wanton thing-a-magic. My grace. Cover me with your white embrace. Come close to me, and put yourself right next to my lips. Smooth out all the cream at my face, and watch me be wild like a child infected with hyperactive syndrome.

Ah, these wanton feeling will never go away as long as i got you, my darling. As long as i got you, you that makes my life bearable everyday.

You

Engkau, engkaulah yang sentiasa buatku gembira, segembiranya. Engkaulah sinar hidupku, sentiasa memuaskan nafsu ku. Engkaulah yang senantiasa membuatku kenyang. Engkaulah sayang ku, takkan ku hidup satu hari tanpamu...

Takkan ku hidup walau satu hari tanpamu, Oreo Double Cream. Mmmm.

"Sial la, siapa makan orea aku ni!"

I Like Mat Rempitzzzzzzz

2009-03-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

Hyep! Titew bowing larhz. Tak tau nk buat aperhzz. Men mespes macam bowing je. Yelah, line internet titew seloww gileww. Ni larh rasew mcamzzz nk tulis blogzzz. Titew td jln2 kuar. Lawak larh kwn2 titew. Diorg bestzz sgt2 tau. I like them fucking ok? (Huh? fucking what?) sowie lah titew engilsh big nono. Td titew nmpk mat rempitzz paciak motor tau. Pastu diorg cam power gilerzz. Titew sukew larh diowg paciak. I like mat rempitzzz. Pas2 tawan titew nk kokong titew taw, titew ckp larh titew tanak sbb titew malu larh titew bewat la. Nati die kokong titew, diew tewjatoh titew kecian larh. So, titew ambik keputusan nk jaln kaki jew. Kitowang jln kaki td nk mamam kt kedai macik tu. Tp titew tanak mamam la. Titew ngah kenyang time tu so titew nengok jew membew titew mamam. Diowang mamam cam bestz jew. Titew pn lapr larh pastu. Pastu kitowang balik. Tu jelah titew nk cite kt kowang. Hope kowang suke cite titew ni ok? Titew syg kowang tau.GG

Meet The Co-Pilot

2009-03-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

Hye! Do i know u? I do? Maybe? Huh? GG!

I am the co-pilot. So yeah, hye. i am the handsome co-pilot.
People call me handsome but i dont really like it. So please call me deco.
okokok? fuck me. Huh?

So, my engelish is so damn godly pro supergodly superduper gamehameha good. I am good in engelish. Me can tok engelish very power till your mother drops! How can your mother drops? Me donno. But me pro can make your mother drop. Drop what? Drop le. U donno drop ar? GG la like this.

Hmm. I was get my engelish 120% on my all exams. See, i told you already is very good. Engelish so damn simple. No need study one. Only talk le. You can master your engelish for sure mar. Me can teach you engelish no biggie one la. Call me, me sure teach one.

Hmm looked liked i am very gooded now so i need to rest. I want rest le.

Nice meeting you guys.
love,
deco

Hik Hik

2009-03-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

"Hai, i handsome ok? Me English big nono big sorry me from uzbeskistan kthxbai see you tomorrow."

Hello.

Ok bye.

Haha. Ok ok, hello. I am nzam. A few days ago, me and some of the young folks; which is my fellow mateys of course, decided that we should start a blog and start crapping our hearts out. So here we are, writing absolute nonsense; labelling ourselves

Engrish is WIN.

Do not ask me what the hell its supposed to mean, because truly honestly, i don't have the slightest idea.
we just thought that its funny for some bloody messed up reason; that no one wantonly cares.
So, onto the introduction!

My name is Nzam, but you can call me anything from Basketball to Mr Retarded. I am too old to be playing games, yet i don't seem to give a damn about it. And I'm GAY. OKAY?

And Me IS WIN. GG

-.- Ok kejap, sorry la, yer saya ni memang suka merepek okay? Anyway, saya dilahirkan di dalam Marketing Meeting. Muka saya macam lahanat syaitan yang direjam. Perangai macam orang yang gila seks; terkinja kinja lompat sana sini pegang sesuatu yang dipanggil kemaluan.

What the fcuk. Anyway, do pardon me for the inappropriate use of language here and then. Anyway, on with it!

Continue
Saya rasa saya amat handsome tak tahan. Tahap maharaja. Amat suka meng-imaginasi-kan perkara yang selalunya tidak masuk akal, seperti bagaimanakah rupa Jennifer Lopez semasa menghadapai cirit birit yang agak maksima.

Ok, enough about me.

So anyway, to those who survived up to this point; you guys might started to realize and started screaming "So whats the point of this blog????!!"

Well, believe in me, there's absolutely no point. We just write, laughing at your toaster like faces, and live another day to actually talk about it at some Fast Food Chain Outlet like Ma-Ke-Donald.

GG.

FuckShitDamnIt

2009-01-13T10:00:00.000+08:00